Saturday, 12 January 2008 / 5:12 pm
attended badm today.
stroked with jingni.
found out i cant hit hard.
even if i did, my hand would hurt a hell lot.
the injury was from the last trainning bahs.
that time i must've pushed myself too much.
it hurt for one whole week lahs.
then mrmok wanted me to stroke with him.
then i hit like shit lor.
then i broke down & cried.
funny right,having eslyn to cry just like that,
although you thought she was brave & all.
well its not about the pain.
its about all tht.
its because i entertain those thoughts.
im a fcuking weak person that cant even control my tears.
even if i tried it'll just flow out & flood the whole place.
then ran to the toilet.
haish i hate crying, ive got difficulty breathing.
sat there & think it through
cry my heart out.
the reason why i did that was because...
i was thinking i suck like hell,how to improve in such short time.
&i cant let the sec1's overtake me,or the current sec2's
i wannar win that badly & play that badly.
&then maybe im too stressed le bahs
ive not cried since 9876543210 years.
fine ive not cried for a year or so.
i cant really concentrate in class although i give my 101% attention.
dont really understand the topic..
but still can lah i revised it all.
then friendship problems are starting to sink onto me,
although i used to not really care about it.
haiyah. maybe its not all those reasons.
maybe its just myself.
~after this senario,
i went to hub with yinkee.
buy lunch with the vocher thingy mrmok gave us.
lol,both of them kapok duno how many peices.
blabs , now blogskinning.
&ohyah almost forgot,
i became the vice capt.
zzz megan capt.
you see i can see the future. sure her derh la.
muahahas capt is damn unlucky,
hp bills never fail to BAOZHA
